failure sucks. but, despite it sucking so much, failure has taught me a lot about myself: how resilient i am, how far i need to go and, sometimes, how i’m exactly where i need to be.
and so, welcome to a list of my professional and personal failures, rejections, and disappointments. started in june of 2020.
does not include the many failures i experience on a near-daily basis: grades that make me feel bad, my struggles with critique, the feeling of not being liked, etc etc
learn more about failure resumes here.
I was super excited about running this conference with one of my good friends about a year ago, but things went downhill after COVID-19 forced a change of plans. I learned that it's okay to just let go sometimes, and that there are costs to taking on too much -- not only for myself, but for others (like our team, and the people who may have been looking forward to the event).
You only need 1 yes!!! To be honest, this isn't a huge failure and I was considering not adding this to this list; I was rejected from the CMU HCII REU program and was not considered for the MSR REU because I had already received and accepted an offer from the UWaterloo URF Program. This experience was like a practice round for grad school apps later this year, which will be helpful in many ways :)
The worst course grade I have ever received. What I learned (or was reminded of): 1) Always make sure to thoroughly study concepts you feel shaky on. 2) A basic understanding needs to be supplemented with practice, at least for math classes. 3) Don't take 2 math classes at the same time, especially during a pandemic. 4) You can enjoy (academic) things you're not necessarily good at.
I could technically still finish this, but I'm so behind that I've forgotten everything I've learned so far. I think I had a hard time because I hadn't yet taken matrix algebra, and honestly, I've never really seen myself as someone who'd be good at ML. I'm going to take a shot at the Harvard CS50 Intro to AI MOOC though, with a better mindset. Wish me luck!
I do diversity in tech work out of a genuine passion for it, but some people have more passion than I do! Rather than forcing myself to "catch up", I will continue to work toward implementing initiatives that I want to see in the space.